This Is Why You Feel Awful

Ever heard of ‘surge capacity’? 

Surge capacity (coined by  Ann Masten, PhD, a psychologist and professor of child development at the University of Minnesota) is a collection of adaptive systems — mental and physical — that humans draw on for short-term survival in acutely stressful situations, such as natural disasters. 

But natural disasters occur over a short period, even if recovery is long. Pandemics are different — the disaster itself stretches out indefinitely.

Surge capacity gets depleted and at about the 6 month mark, we hit a wall.  We are passed that point now with the ongoing pandemic and uncertainty. 

Disaster relief workers and burnout experts also know about this 6 month wall.  Adrenaline needed for disasters is meant for short term energy.  What we are in is now is demanding a long term expenditure for many of us.  Even a low grade expenditure of energy over the uncertainty, the little losses, the fear, the what’s next, is a constant drain.

What do you do when your surge capacity is depleted and you need to renew it because the emergency phase has become chronic?

I couldn’t get my column done last month.  It wasn’t as if I didn’t have the time.  I didn’t have the energy.  I could point to a thousand other things that took up my time and energy but I was just spent. 

Author and speaker Brene Brown said it this way, “It’s like the wind is breaking the windows and we are in clean up at the same time, but in a pandemic, the destruction is invisible and ongoing.  It’s not like a natural disaster where you can see the damage.” 

Trying to find the energy like we had before this year is like ‘looking for disaster relief while hurricane is still blowing the shutters off the house.’

So how do we renew our energy source in view of the new ‘abnormal’?

The first thing is to acknowledge that anxiety and weariness is normal.  You will feel more depleted if you spend time thinking there is something wrong with you or that you are alone feeling overwhelmed.  Feeling that way is normal.  So is feeling a sort of disinterested boredom which is another common feeling in research on burnout.

Second, acknowledge that we are in a time of ambiguous loss and grief.  Sometimes, it’s losses that are hard to name or we judge them as small compared to the big stuff that’s happening to others around us.  They may seem too small but they aren’t, especially for our kids.  

For problem solvers and go-getters or those that already tend toward anxiety, they feel even more of a need for control and can’t figure out how with something so ambiguous and forever changing like pandemics and massive social upheavals.  That helpless feeling surges when we see our kids hopes and dreams crushed (or our own) and we can’t help them fix it.  Author Ann Lamont says, ‘Help is the sunny side of control.’  Darn. 

This ambiguous loss can be many things—the loss of a way of life, of freedom, of being able to meet up with our friends and family, to attend funerals, weddings or graduations—or even plan them, perhaps a loss of trust in our government, or just the daily rituals that became the fabric of our lives.  It’s ambiguous but nevertheless, it’s a major, unexpected and unwelcome shift that we did nothing to cause.

So naming it and normalizing it as well as reality checking our expectations sounds simple but it’s not easy.  Accepting things as they are, at least for a while longer than we wanted and expecting less of yourself and others around you are key plugs to the draining of your energy.

We must also restore our energy resources. 

As highlighted in Brown’s podcast, Dr. Maddus a professor at the University of Minnesota and motivational speaker noted a ‘resilience bank account’ is necessary for the long haul. 

“Dr. Maddaus explained why building things and creating is bringing some of us joy and real feelings of restoration and recharge. He explains that there are two ways the brain deals with the world: the future, including things we need to go after and get done, and the here and now, seeing things and touching things. 

He explained that, “Rather than being at the mercy of what’s going on in the world right now, we can use elements of this natural reward system that we have and construct things to do that are good, no matter what.”  Activities that have meaning for you have that ‘here and now element’ and those that have a planning element provide that future orientation element.

Another big source of energy: Play.  In Dr. Stuart Brown’s seminal work on Play he says, “The opposite of play is not work.  The opposite of play is depression.” 

Our biologically programmed need for play can transform us and renew our sense of excitement in life.

Dr. Stuart’s definition of Play is time spent without purpose including activities where you lose track of time and/or where you feel free to be yourself-liberated and uninhibited. 

I agree with Brown’s suggestion that you and your loved ones make a list of play activities that meet the definition of play.  Then look at your lists and see what you have in common.  Build time together based on these activities and time alone on the activities you don’t share in common.  I’ll be you already know some things that could go on the list.  Puttering around and not getting anything ‘done’ can be one.

Research on play has found that we get constant and predictable energy from play.  It’s not quick and gone energy like from a caffeine or sugar burst but one that, when done regularly, provides real sustenance to the body and brain.  That’s why I say F.U.N. truly is a Fundamental Universal Need. 

Often grown-ups say, “This is no time for play.  The world is falling apart!”  I’ll paraphrase what Brown says so well:  We can’t fight on no energy.  We can’t fight for love or joy unless we’re experiencing it.  We need that energy source not only for the fights we want to fight but just to get through the day. 

As I always say, go out and play (and nap)!  Don’t forget the naps. 

If you feel stuck in how to proceed, I can help!  You can contact me for life, wellness and family coaching and/or counseling sessions at and

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Are You Tired Yet?

exhausted person

People are just worn out.  Most humans in the modern world have been found to be chronically sleep deprived.  Even small amounts of sleep deprivation or a sleep deficit is linked to weight gain, foggy thinking, poor concentration, coordination mistakes, an elevated stress response and lowered immune function, just to name a few.  So with a new pandemic floating around, this is about the worst time for us to have a sleep deficit.  However, people seem more exhausted than usual.  It’s not just a lack of enough and good quality sleep that taxes our energy systems but stress while we are awake.

We are also chronically stressed in the modern world and that along with a sleep deficit is a recipe for chronic disease, a lack of peacefulness or contentment with life, and a reduced ability to deal with what comes without going into ‘flight, fight, freeze, or faint’ mode.   All you have to do is watch tv or some social media and you can feel at least one of these modes kick in.  It’s a tough time all around the globe it seems.

I have just learned about a woman who has a ‘Nap Ministry’.  Trisha Hersey postulates that napping or resting and checking out of the ‘grind economy,’ at least sometimes, is a form of working toward social justice.  She suggests that the capitalistic view point of ‘more, more, more’ is driving us all to poor health.  Certainly, by the looks of it, we are not doing well overall with our rates of chronic illness and autoimmune disease going through the roof.

So Trisha takes naps.  She makes space for adults to take naps together and support each other instead of doing even yoga or meditation.  What a concept!  I have always dreamed of adult play spaces where we are free to finger paint, dress up, jump on trampolines or in ball or foam pits AND of course there would be a nap room!

Napping for Justice is part of what The Nap Ministry is about–resisting the call to do more and be a human doing instead of a human being.  She says that is what drives a lot of social injustice because some people don’t have the access or resources to produce more, more, more.  They get left behind in poverty and thus considered less valuable beings then the wall street millionaire.  This is not a just notion nor does it promote compassion or community—the only things that have enabled humans to really thrive, and still do.

So what would happen if you napped?  Or even just laid down to rest to start with?  Do you notice immediate resistance when you read that or does it give you a sense of ‘Yes!’.  Whichever it is, I encourage you explore that.  If there’s resistance, what is that about?  What are you afraid will happen if you rest?  What can you do to plan around what ‘might’ happen?  How could you create a support or resource to work around it?  Could you challenge yourself to even just let the fear go, be willing to experiment and try a rest or a nap to see if what you are afraid of really comes to pass.  Then, you can work around the reality, not the anticipated reality.

How many parents out there need a nap?  Could you exchange a play date with another parent so you can go take a nap?  If someone asked you to do this so they could nap, would you applaud their self-care or would you judge it?  Would you envy it and want to create some for yourself?

Consider that ‘grind culture’ keeps us judging ourselves and others for self-care and the basic human need to rest.  I promote play as a Fundamental Universal Need or F.U.N. and it is quite serious.  Sleep is as important.  I’m joining the Nap Ministry as it’s given me a bit more space to actually nap during the day and not just wait until night or try to go to bed early.

Consider Trisha’s words:

“May a space to daydream and slow down open to you. May you realize the power of taking rest since no one will give it to you. This is why rest is a resistance and a slow meticulous love practice. We must continue deprogramming from grind culture. We must continue not turning away from our own terror. We must deconstruct around the ways we uphold grind culture, capitalism and white supremacy.  We must wake up. We will rest.”

I have seen this quote too: “You often feel tired not because you’ve done too much, but because you’ve done too little of what sparks a light in you.” Author unknown.  That is also true.  How many of us are tired because we are so uninspired?

If you can’t necessarily get out of an uninspiring job or activity, is there something you can find within it to look forward to, even if you create it—like a nice place to go eat lunch outside?  Or can you find something to do after that responsibility is done in each day to reward yourself, like take walk or better yet, a 20-30 minute nap?!  We must find inspiration in our day, one that rejuvenates and adds to our health, and resist turning to something that leaches it from our physical and mental health like substance use or other distractions like unhealthy food, tv, gaming or social media.

We need to rest and re-charge and PLAY.  When you make a commitment to your own health, you will inspire and be a role model for others around you, especially our children, who need us to be that for them.  Funny to think that napping and playing can actually be the best things to show our children.  It will start them off on the right path of being a human being, not a human doing.  Which will you be?



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This Too Shall Pass

I heard a story recently about the fabled King Solomon.  He had a boastful solider who announced that he could find anything that the King required, anywhere on earth.  The King decided that the solider needed more humility so he thought of an impossible task.  The King publicly challenged the solider to find him a magical ring ‘that can make a happy person sad and a sad person happy.’  The King gave the solider six months to find this magical ring.

The solider ventured forth, scouring the earth to find this magical ring, talking to every metalsmith and jeweler he could find.  Nearing the end of his six month quest, he was discouraged and sat down on the side of a dusty road in a little town.  He found one last metalsmith and asked the boy there about this ring.  The boy went to get his grandfather and told him what the solider was looking for.  The wise old grandfather knew just what the king was talking about and went and inscribed something into a plain, gold band.

When the solider read the inscription in the ‘magical’ ring, the he was dumbfounded.  Then his sadness turned to joy because he suddenly saw the light and hurried home to the King.

Can you guess what the inscription read?

This Too Shall Pass.  Only the ending of something good to a happy person could make him or her sad and the ending of something bad to a sad person could make him or her happy.

I remember long ago reading some sage wisdom along these same lines.  The author indicated that we should not be too attached to anything that happens to us—the good or the bad–because everything changes.  You may be in the best job or relationship or home of your life, and something will change it.  You may be in the worst job, relationship or home of your life, and something will change it.

This Too Shall Pass is an oft quoted mantra and sorely needed in times like these when we feel challenged in all directions.  You might be surprised how comforting this is especially when we are struggling, but also it can be very freeing when things are going well.  We can truly live in the moment when we understand that this too shall pass.  We can appreciate the good and let it in better when we know, yes, it will likely pass.  And we can cope better with the ugly, frightening and unknown when we believe it will pass.

I didn’t take this seriously enough when I lived in the (up to then) best home of my life and now it’s gone for me.  If I had, I would have spent more time on the deck.  Now I live in a gorgeous spot overlooking another sacred mountain, and the moment I am done with the article I am going outside to play in the pool and sit in the sunshine, for this too shall pass.

What do you need to apply this phrase to today?  Both the good and not good–global, local and personal?  Try it and see what shifts.  Reach out for help if you need it.  I’m still available for online and phone coaching and counseling and there are other resources in the community we can get you connected with to help.  Always, at least for now, you have the outdoors to be free in.  Go play!

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The Gifts of Vulnerability

Recently I heard a story that reminded me how important it is to allow yourself to be vulnerable.  What?!  That sounds like bad advice on the face of it and it IS important to know when to have proper boundaries.  The secret is knowing how not to turn those boundaries into a brick wall that shuts out what you actually want.

This is a true story that happened to my friend recently.  At the very beginning of the lockdowns being announced, she was to get on a flight.  There were new rules being pronounced and they were changing daily.  She was told at the check in desk of her airline that she would not be allowed to board her flight without a mask.  She of course didn’t have one with her.  She was panicked because she was trying to get home and if she delayed or missed the flight, she was going to be trapped in a foreign country.  She was told harshly that it would be up to the gate crew ultimately so she started making her way to her gate, practically trembling.  She had to take an elevator and another woman got on at the same time.  My friend was very upset so in her shock and worry, she disclosed to the woman what she had been told at the check in desk.

The other woman smiled at her and said, ‘I work for the Red Cross and I have a whole bag full of masks with me.  Here, you can have one,’ as she bent over and took one out of her bag.  My friend was delighted and grateful.

What a wonderful ‘coincidence’ and one that wouldn’t have occurred if my friend had not been willing to open up to, in this case, a total stranger.  If she hadn’t chosen to be vulnerable, she may have gotten stuck where she was for who knows how long.  It would have been so easy to just stew in her worry in the elevator but for some reason, she chose to just let it out and voila!  The universe provides!

This is but a small tale but illustrates what so many are finding in their daily lives to be the way toward connection, not the disconnection we are all afraid of.  The research of Brene Brown has also shown that vulnerability breeds connection and shame and fear breeds disconnection.

We are so completely wired to be connected as human beings that the biggest threat to our survival quite literally is to be rejected or abandoned.  Yet, paradoxically, so many people fear being abandoned that they set themselves up for it by walking around with ‘abandonment glasses’ or a way of looking at every situation that picks out the details that MIGHT indicate a possible rejection.  Someone doesn’t talk to you for very long at a social event, but three other people are quite nice.

Abandonment glasses cause us to only think about that one person and make their behavior about us, when it is entirely possible that they had gas and wanted to get out of there.  But then you refuse to go to another event by ‘those people’ again.  Disconnection.  Lost opportunities.

We then fail to let in the good—forget to let the good things happening even register because we are so vigilant about watching out for possible rejection.  We are so busy trying to not be vulnerable, we end up feeling moreso by focusing with the wrong lenses.

Have you ever done that?  Realized later you only saw part of the picture?  It’s like that story about the elephant and the three blind men.  Maybe that one is for another day.

Where do you need to take off your glasses that keep you stuck?  Who do you wear these glasses around most?  Who/where else do you then wear these glasses around that don’t really deserve it?  What/who are you not letting in?  What is it costing you in relationships, jobs and peace and happiness?

It takes a lot of courage to be vulnerable but the alternative is much harder.  It takes some skill in handling the anxiety that comes up from taking off the glasses but you can get help with that.

First things first, think about a situation in which you would like to take off those glasses that keep you stuck and then, when the anxiety rises about doing it differently, go outside.  Breathe deep.  Move your body.  PLAY.  After a while, come back in and I’ll bet you will have some new ideas.  If not, pick up the phone and ask for help from a trusted friend or professional.  It can take practice to build the skills to keep you feeling strong in your vulnerability.  You deserve the gifts that vulnerability brings!

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What If We Stopped Calling Each Other ‘Stupid’?

One thing I have noticed people doing especially on social media is creating a lot of distance and disconnection by chronically referring to anyone that doesn’t believe as we do ‘stupid’.  I have caught myself doing this too.

‘They’ are ‘stupid’ for not believing wearing masks is the answer.  They are ‘stupid’ for wearing masks all the time.  The are stupid for thinking a vaccine will help this.  They are stupid for not wanting to get vaccinated.  They are stupid for relying on the medical establishment or stupid for looking for alternative or natural treatments for this virus, etc.

There is an unbelievable amount of information out there in the universe of the world wide web, for good or for naught.  Do we believe that only we have the ability to sort through it all and come up with ‘the truth’ or might it be possible that others could read what we read or different things and come up with another truth?  Not everything is fake news and much medical information is not in agreement or changes based on one study vs. another.

The best thing I saw recently was a post by someone facetiously wondering why the ‘rules’ aren’t clear yet and then proceeding to point out all the ‘rules’ and then the ‘exceptions’ as also stated by trusted ‘authorities.’  It came down to ‘this is the right thing, unless it isn’t.’   That pretty much summed it up for me.

I haven’t been surprised at all the disagreement among health professionals and researchers as to prevention, treatment and public policy around this virus.  That’s just the way it is, even when you are looking at the physical body.  There are always medical professionals trying different and novel treatments.  That’s how medical knowledge ends up on the cutting edge in addition to controlled research.  There is plenty of evidence that research is influenced by who is paying for it so we must always be a bit skeptical and ‘follow the money’ as they say before we sink our teeth into believing just one thing or another.

I’m always amazed that people can learn something either by their own reading or study and then become completely closed to new information.  It seems then that they believe no one else could possibly do the same thing and come to a different conclusion.  This is not good for us or humanity or our connection to each other.  It makes us so strident that we can’t even have a conversation without the word ‘stupid’ popping into our brain or out of our mouth.

I wonder what would happen to our fear level if we just stopped calling each other stupid and started saying, “May they be free from fear and be well.’

Where does calling someone ‘stupid’ get you?  Why do you think you or others might do it?  I suggest it is a way to manage fear.  If you KNOW the right solution, you feel a sense of control and that falsely makes us less fearful.  However, the next ‘new’ piece to the puzzle that is the ever-changing world of medical knowledge will convince you to fear something else that’s new and not in your control.

Giving up a sense of control when it gets out of control is the least stressful thing I can think of to do.  Not creating disconnection between ourselves and our loved ones or fellow humans is the next best thing.  We NEED each other and when push comes to shove, who was right about the latest moving target of truth is not going to matter because the next challenge is coming up right behind you and we will all need someone to hold us up.

I think of it as a tsunami wave.  The wave of new information, new threats to us and the planet just keep coming.  We don’t know how much water is behind the first rush and we will need to lift each other up to safety.  If one guy tries to grab onto a tree branch instead of your outstretched hand, would calling him ‘stupid’ in the moment going to help you or him or humanity?  He was just trying to survive the best he could in the moment.  He may not have seen that debris coming up behind him but you wouldn’t have seen what he saw from his perspective either.  That’s why he reached for the tree branch—it was because of something only he could see.

Do you believe that people have the ability and right to seek out information and draw conclusions about how to handle this crisis in the best way, the same as you do?  Do you believe people generally want to do the best they can do, based on their knowledge and beliefs, and aren’t deliberately putting others in harm’s way?  It may not look like it, but the reality is people are still doing the best they can based on their maturity level AND openness to new information.  It may not be your reality or your version of maturity and that’s hard to take sometimes.  It’s also true that fear does not help people respond from the best, most rational self (see my prior posts about managing the F.E.A.R.).  Their fear can increase your fear, if you let it.  That is up to you and your maturity level and willingness to not let fear control you.  Calling people ‘stupid’ is a sure-fire way to increase your fear.

We will of course come to different conclusions.  That is the way of it.  I find I need to develop more radical acceptance for ‘the way it is’ these days because it is easy to get overwhelmed by fear.  When I recognize that is what is going on, I stop, take a breath and now I am saying, “May they be free from fear.  May I be free from fear.  May they be well.  May I be well.”

How would it change your experience if you adopted that or another approach instead of ‘they are so stupid’?  You deserve to be more connected, not less, and less fearful, and so does everyone else, despite our differences.

The best way to get back into that space of without overwhelming fear is to PLAY.  It frees our mind and body and allows creative thought, ease and compassion to arise.  Try it today and see how much better you cope with whatever is going on in your world today.

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Enjoying the J.O.M.O.

You may have heard of F.O.M.O. or the Fear Of Missing Out or seen the column I wrote about it a while back.  Recently during the lockdown, someone coined a new term—J.O.M.O. or the Joy Of Missing Out.  I can understand the J.O.M.O. despite the hardships of the lockdown that we all have endured.

For some people, lockdown is a nightmare so I don’t want to minimize the pain of so many.  I shudder for our collective mental health, especially for the number of women and children in abusive homes that have gotten demonstrably worse during lockdown.  The pressures of job loss or interruption, the concerns for health, the stress of being confined or homeless, the worry for the planet as a whole—it takes its toll.  However, there has been an opportunity here during lockdown that many people have realized.

Those who understood the J.O.M.O. early on in the lockdown, especially those people who are naturally more introverted, really appreciated the slowing down of life.  Many of us are chronically stressed, doing too much, overwhelmed with the demands and choices of our life, trying to take care of too many people while neglecting our own needs.  It’s a recipe for a health and mental health disaster which shows itself in our communities every day.  The J.O.M.O. then, was palpable for many who wanted and needed an ‘excuse’ to say ‘no’ to their overly committed lives.  It was like getting a free pass for some level of renewal.  Once you could get past the ‘shoulds’ and the stress of suddenly having a lot of unstructured time, there was a collective deep exhale for so many of us to not have to do one more thing.

One client of mine had her 7 year old daughter in no less than 5 classes a week and activities on the weekend, all while the mother worked full time and was a single parent who not surprisingly, suffers from insomnia, headaches and neck and shoulder pain daily.  When I got her to ask her daughter about how she felt about their activity level, the daughter was thrilled to have everything cancelled.  Finally the mother believed me and all the others that advised her that her daughter was overscheduled and stressed, even if her daughter said she enjoyed the activities.  We ALL, especially kids, need unstructured down time for the brain to process what is happening in our lives, to feel our feelings, to know our real beliefs and desires, and be a human being instead of a human doing.

If what it takes to have some people accept being a human being instead of a human doing is a pandemic, then we can actually come out of this being grateful.  Our collective humanity is careening off the edge of a distressed planet which would benefit from our removal.  We MUST stop, find the J.O.M.O. and realize you aren’t actually missing out at all.

So many of us found benefits in the slowness, after we got through the ‘boredom’ and our nervous systems were allowed to be heard.  Then a sigh of relief was also heard.  At some point, did you feel like you got a staycation?  Did you feel better when you did less?  How much easier did it get to say ‘no’?  How can you apply this in your life post-lockdown when you don’t have the ‘excuse’?  What were the benefits to you of slowing down?  What things did you get rid of that helped you with your J.O.M.O.?

You have probably heard the saying, ‘No is a complete sentence.’  All of us, especially women, suffer from doing too much and not knowing how to say no.  We think we are responsible for other people’s feelings (we are not) and un-learning that takes some time and work.

The kids (and hopefully all the pets) benefited from more attention from the adults or family in their lives.  Kids do NOT want or need another toy, device or activity, even if they say they do.  It is up to the adults to help our children learn how to self regulate.  We do this by interacting with them and providing emotional support, validation and good role modeling.  They often see much more than we think.  The mother of the 7 year old I mentioned was letting her daughter call the shots but I pointed out that kids don’t know how to self regulate well and that’s why they need the adults in their lives to say ‘no, you are doing too much.  You need to go play.’  Fifty years of child development research clearly tells us that unstructured imaginative play is critical to physical and mental health, as well as brain development.  In addition, positive interactions, even as simple as consistent family dinners together can be the deciding factor in how well a child copes with life.  Less is more.  The J.O.M.O. is a gift.  I hope you will accept this gift and never, ever go back to ‘normal.’

What would a new normal look like to you, your family, your work, your relationships?  Adults also need unstructured time to play and unwind in a thoughtful way.  We don’t need complicated or expensive toys and activities to be happy.  Have you benefited from more time with loved ones or found a way through the inevitable conflict that first arises when our old patterns of ‘normal’ are challenged?  What new skills and realizations do you have because of the J.O.M.O.?  If the lockdown was a nightmare for you, what have you realized about your old life that must change and what is one small step you can make toward a new normal?

Will you be a human being or a human doing?  As we come out of lockdown, the slowing down can and will continue to some degree.  We can’t do everything we used to do because of the continuing need to for physical distancing.  How can you use this to your benefit?  What will you prioritize or will things be prioritized for you?  That is a choice.  If you need help figuring out your new normal OR being able to stay with your J.O.M.O., reach out for help.  This is YOUR life.  Start with playing and that will give your mind, body and spirit the space it needs to know what’s next.

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Earth Day 2020!

I just learned that on the ‘first’ Earth Day celebration 50 years ago on April 22, 1970, 20 MILLION people in the USA demonstrated to demand that the government take action to protect the environment.  20 MILLION on one day!  That was 10% of the entire US population at the time.  President Nixon was so moved by the demonstrations that they resulted in the formation of the Environmental Protection Agency.

All of my posts and work are focused on connection with the natural world in some way to facilitate emotional, social, mental, physical and spiritual wellness so celebrating Earth Day is right in alignment for me.

I got ‘woke’ 30 years ago while in graduate school and watching educational shows on MTV about the environment around Earth Day.  Wow.  Never looked back.  Changed my commitments to this planet and ALL of her inhabitants, especially animals.

Now, I find my self challenged again as we look at where we are 50 years later.  I fight despair and hopelessness because they rob me of JOY and that robs me of motivation.

I was also challenged by a group I’m in to PUBLICLY promise to do something to help this planet so here goes:


1) to not and to remind people NOT to use disposable ‘protective gear’ in everyday life if they are afraid of illness. Gloves and masks are already turning up in the waterways and on land.
2) to never invest in companies that destroy people, animals and places
3) to continue to not use products that test on animals and make my own to cut down on plastic use
4) eat less meat or go back to my vegetarian ways–already off eggs and dairy
5) to help more animals-through fostering, donations, and educating others
6) to re-commit to raising the JOY vibration in the world b/c hopelessness makes us lose our motivation.

Really, this kind of commitment helps me too to be healthier and happier.  Consider how making a promise like this will HELP YOU too!

Now I am giving you an EARTH DAY CHALLENGE. What will YOU promise to do that will help this planet and/or its inhabitants? How will it help YOU?  Please share the challenge and please comment!

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The Four Candles

I came across this story recently and I wish I could find a reference for it so please let me know if you know it.  It is about something we need rather badly now as it seems the world is spinning on out of control fear which has led to some very sad behavior choices.

This story helped me and I hope it will be an inspiration to you.  It’s called The Four Candles.

The Four Candles burned
slowly. Their Ambiance was so
soft you could hear them

The First Candle said, “I Am
Peace, but these days, nobody
wants to keep me lit.” Then
Peace’s flame slowly
diminishes and goes out

The Second Candle said, “I Am
Faith, but these days, I am no
longer indispensable.” Then
Faith’s flame slowly
diminishes and goes out

Sadly The Third Candle Speaks,

“I Am Love and I haven’t the

strength to stay lit any

longer. People put me aside

and don’t understand my

importance. They even forget

to love those who are nearest

to them.” Waiting no longer,

Love goes out completely.


Suddenly…A child enters the

room and sees the three

candles no longer burning. The

child begins to cry, “Why are

you not burning? You are

supposed to stay lit until the


Then The Fourth Candle speaks

gently to the little child,

“Don’t be afraid, for I Am

Hope, and while I still burn,

we can re-light the other



With Shining Eyes the child

took the Candle Of Hope and

lit the other three candles.


Never let the Flame Of Hope go

out of your life. With Hope,

no matter how bad things look

and are…Peace, Faith and

Love can Shine Brightly in our



How can you kindle the hope in your life?  What part of your faith, peace or love is difficult to hold on to and what will help you with this?  Alternatively, is there something that is asking to be released from your life?

Your inner wisdom can help you decide if something needs to shift during this time of renewal and re-evaluation of our lives.  Sometimes when we let go of one thing, something else quite unexpected comes into our lives and it renews our love, peace, faith and hope.

There are gifts for many people in this strange time but it may be difficult to see them, especially if you are not paying attention or drowning out the full range of emotions through too much news or social media or incessant conversations about the situation that is feeding your F.E.A.R. (see my last couple of blog posts for more on this).  Yes, there may be pain for many, many people but that is part of life, just like death.  The old saying stands true, “Pain is inevitable but suffering is a choice.”

Take this time to see where your sense of Peace, Faith, Love and especially Hope stands.  What will help you light your candles and keep them lit?  Focus on that and you get through this with many more gifts than you realize.  If you need help finding them, as many will, please reach out for help.  You deserve to keep all four candles of your life LIT.

One of the best things you can do to renew hope is to go outside in the sunshine (which is a natural disinfectant), into nature and just take it all in through your 5 senses with curiosity, play and exploration.  Mother Nature is still here for us and she is finally getting a breather too.

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What If??

What if I told you that many already believe that this latest pandemic was inevitable?  Interestingly, these ‘new’ pathogens keep coming around, often as a result of contact with abused and cruelly treated animals.  What if I told you the Earth, being a living organism has an intelligence and can create things, just like our immune system can, to try to throw off a pathogen?  Who do you think is the biggest pathogen on Mother Earth now?  You may have heard that there are far too many of us for the Earth to sustain at our present rate of resource use.  Is she is again trying to bring herself back in balance?

If this virus was again created by the Earth to fling off her worst pathogen, then can we accept her right to do so to stay alive?

I tend to take a non-panicked long view of things and when everyone is running screaming out one door, I look for another door entirely.  It’s not a popular door to find, but I am not alone in looking for it either.

I invite you to join me in living without being controlled by F.E.A.R. or False Evidence Appearing Real.  Fear is much more harmful to your health in the long run than a virus in which at this writing 80% of people infected have mild or no symptoms and up to 96% to 99% recover from the infection according to Dr. Mark Hyman, a Functional Medicine expert.  Those are GREAT odds.

Can we accept that we are more at risk getting in our own car or in our own communities than from this virus with the high survival rate it has?

I invite you to question why the social and other media decided that this virus was worse than say for example the 31 MILLION children that die every year from malnutrition, or 85,000 children a DAY that gets nearly zero attention.

I invite you to put things in perspective and look at other pandemics, rates of flu deaths, cancer and heart disease, car accidents, death from intimate partner violence, and many other causes and see that if this panic is really is worth the worldwide economic, financial and mental toll it has taken and will take for decades to come.

Can we accept that we must own the reason many recent pandemics get started in the first place—our cruel treatment of either wild or non-wild animals?  Are we ready yet to see that the other beings with which we share this planet have a right to be here and not be used and abused by us?  Are we the supreme rulers if they can take us out with a simple virus that many of these animals carry without harm?  Could it be their last defense?

Jane Goodall speaks to this in a video she posted last month.  See it here:

I often write about the positive impact of nature on our mental and physical health.  This pandemic that is occurring is seriously hampering even reasonable efforts to enjoy what little time we have on this Earth, to find some joy and enhance our immune system.  Locking people in their homes, many of whom then get sucked into social or other media, is akin to throwing gas on the flames.  We did that.  How will we come out of this and be better before the next go-round?  What will you demand of your elected officials to keep this from happening again, or to make sure the healthcare system isn’t overwhelmed again?

We will learn from this, hopefully in the right direction.  If we take the view of the Earth and understand it’s all about balance—some will die, some will live and those that live become stronger IF they keep their resources in balance so they are available in an emergency.  Will we get that from this experience or will we continue to cause ourselves more suffering demanding that this ‘go away’ or telling ourselves the story that it’s somehow not acceptable or more tragic if people die from this versus the more likely scenario of a car accident, on their own stairs or in their own bathroom, heart attack or cancer, or starvation?  Pain is inevitable but suffering is a choice.  If we demand things from this Earth until we are so out of balance that one new virus can throw off our entire population and keep us from having the resources to deal with it, we are choosing suffering.

Prevention is the key to all health challenges.  This virus will be with us, like the flu and other serious pathogens and toxins that we must deal with every day.  There is a way to eat, sleep and take care of yourself that will make you much less susceptible to every bad bug.  I wrote some about this in my recent article called F.S.F.-The New S.O.S.  Contact me for more information or see the article online.

Do what you can to get outside and get some disinfecting UV light and immune enhancing Vitamin D from the sun.  During epidemics in the past, hospitals found that opening up all the windows and bringing patients outside helped survival rates dramatically and it became standard practice for a while.  We lost that wisdom along the way.

It will also help keep your anxiety down if you get your body moving in some way.  You are much more likely to get sick worrying about if you can find enough toilet paper and then running to the store with all the other people in close proximity, with ALL the pathogens we ALL carry, ALL the time.  It’s like throwing yourself out of the frying pan and into the fire!  Don’t do it!  Yes, wash your hands, and practice good hygiene with others but don’t let F.E.A.R. and stress be your undoing!  Fight the F.E.A.R. through PLAY!

I also offer this poem which has been circulating and is well said:

“And the people stayed home. And read books, and listened, and rested, and exercised, and made art, and played games, and learned new ways of being, and were still. And listened more deeply. Some meditated, some prayed, some danced. Some met their shadows. And the people began to think differently.

And the people healed. And, in the absence of people living in ignorant, dangerous, mindless, and heartless ways, the earth began to heal. 

And when the danger passed, and the people joined together again, they grieved their losses, and made new choices, and dreamed new images, and created new ways to live and heal the earth fully, as they had been healed.”

~Kitty O’Meary

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Fear the F.E.A.R. and What to Do Instead

I am sure you are aware by now of the amazing impact the Coronavirus or COV-19 has had around the world, on entire economies and the financial, personal and health lives of it seems, everyone on earth. Corona virus is no worse than a mild flu in most people and the ones it kills are the usual ones that every virus or pathogen like the flu kills—the elderly and/or already ill.  Sad yes, but does not justify the level of reaction by any means based on the real numbers.  Know how many children die per year from undernutrition—31 MILLION.  That’s almost 85,000 children PER DAY.  Where are the alarm bells for that every day?

The worldwide response to this current incarnation of the corona virus baffles the mind when you are so much more likely to get hurt or killed by getting in your own car every day or even crossing the street.  If you are a woman, you are more likely to be killed by an intimate partner than this virus (50,000/year worldwide).  Heart failure and accidents in or near your own home are more likely to kill or hurt you on a daily basis.  Are you afraid to go up and down your stairs or get in or out of the bathtub?  No.  Look up the numbers on this and start to question why you are being told this virus is so much worse.  There’s a reason it’s worse and it’s not because it’s going to get you.

How could a basically insignificant virus, that which, at the time of this writing has killed no more than 5000 people out of 7.5 BILLION and spreading no more quickly than the common cold or flu getting the kind of attention and response this is?  One word F.E.A.R.– or False Evidence Appearing Real.  I believe that irresponsible, inflammatory journalism didn’t look at the facts in perspective and had a field day with making a small amount of the ‘unknown’ seem worse than it was because of a financial motive to get people to watch, tune in, etc. to their shows, programs and social media sites.  Politicians under pressure  to DO something by this fear mongering made them make senseless and illogical decisions instead of un-alarming the public.

It is our right AND our responsibility in this day and age to think critically and question the information being given to us in the news, by the reporters, the talking heads and the politicians about pretty much everything.  What is the reality of this virus in perspective to other illnesses or things that cause death?  It’s the same as with HIV in proportion to cancer.  The attention HIV got and the subsequent funding, far outweighed that of cancer, a much more common deadly disease that also takes a terrible toll on its victims and their loved ones.

Who gets to decide that one disease or problem is the worse one?  Why does the media get to decide what’s news one day and gone the next?  Are the fires in Australia still burning?  We wouldn’t know unless you go dig for it because the major media stop paying attention to it about half way through because it got old.  The virus was new and could be made scarier because it could impact more people, so more people would tune in.  That’s the mind set of the news creators.  They think they can lead us around by the nose.  I reject that lack of respect in humanity.

The media and our political system know how to play on F.E.A.R. and we are falling for it.  For our actual health, this must stop.  The stress alone is more likely to lower your immunity and cause you more damage short and long term than the actual virus!   Question everything by asking ‘Compared to what?’.  When someone makes big, scary claims, grab that F.E.A.R. by the throat and start asking ‘compared to what?’ and see if there is a loss of perspective.

F.E.A.R. means big money for some people, especially the pharmaceutical industry and the media.  So the next challenge to you is to always ‘follow the money.’  You may have heard of this tactic because so many times, once you do, you always find a profit motive behind the fear-mongering.  Our brains are evolved to pay attention more to fearful or anxiety provoking information.  This is the ‘negativity bias’ that is meant only to keep us safe from immediate and lethal threats.  This part of the brain evolved from a much earlier, more simple ‘lizard’ brain but its overuse in this day and age by those who control information dissemination are manipulating this effect.  This keeps us so distracted it is a challenge to evolve further to better develop our higher level brain skills like critical thinking unless we really try harder not to be sucked into by the lizard brain.  Indeed, we should be taught these skills at home and school as a matter of course but we are not.

This virus is just a variant on one that has been around for a while and it will continue to come back around every year like the various strains of the cold and flu that can’t be eradicated no matter how many vaccines they try to throw at it.  Viruses and other pathogens are incredibly clever at diversifying and do so by NOT killing their host so they can replicate, evolve and pass themselves on.  That’s why there is still no cure for the common cold.

What we DO know about how to fight illness and disease is back to the basics—and what I wrote about recently in my F.S.F.—The New S.O.S.  The food you eat has a huge impact on your gut and therefore your immunity since most chemicals needed for your immune system are made there.  Food choices also impact tremendously on our mental function and mood so healthy food will help you be more ready to use ALL your brain power, not just your lizard brain.  It will also help you keep your anxiety as the neurotransmitters we need for mood balance are almost all made in your gut.  Sleep is also key in keeping your immunity strong as is stress relieving or FUN activities.  You are much more likely to get sick worrying about if you can find enough toilet paper and then running to the store with all the other people in close proximity, with ALL the pathogens we ALL carry, ALL the time.  It’s like throwing yourself out of the frying pan and into the fire!  Don’t do it!  Go to the beach or elsewhere in nature, watch a funny movie, hug and get hugged.  Yes, wash your hands but don’t let F.E.A.R. and stress be your undoing!  Fight the F.E.A.R. with F.S.F. and go PLAY!

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